Sinner’s Prayer

Try Googling it.

There are so many variations of the prayer, it’s impossible to know which prayer is the “right” one after doing a quick search. I suppose that’s the point. According to Wikipedia (yes, I’m referencing it), the sinner’s prayer is any prayer of repentance, spoken or read by individuals who feel convicted of the presence of sin in their life and desire to form or renew a personal relationship with God through his son Jesus Christ. For me, the desire was to form a personal relationship with God. And that, I did.

So, as of January 26, 2012, I’ve been saved!

I’ve been with an all-girls Austin Stone missional community for one and a half years now, and it has been the greatest blessing of my life. 2 months ago, I felt compelled to spend time with Nina, one of the girls in my group, so we watched the BCS National Championship game together at Third Base. Amidst loud cheering from LSU and Alabama fans, she asked me one of the simplest yet most difficult questions: “Have you been saved?”

For 1.5 years, I had been ignoring the most fundamental act of the Christian walk–being saved–because I had been afraid of it. But why? The free gift of salvation is something everyone should/would die for (literally)! Well, I wasn’t dying to be saved because I feared the end result, or lack thereof. I had been going to church, reading the bible, and actively seeking a relationship with God for almost 2 years. When it came to being saved, all I could think was, “What happens when nothing changes? What happens when I feel no different? Does that mean it’s time to give up?” I wasn’t prepared to deal with that situation, so naturally I put it off. But God has led me to this point by putting the girls of my missional community in my life, motivating me to attend the Austin Stone week after week, and giving me the desire to know him better.

I’ve invited Jesus into my heart wholeheartedly, and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done in my life.